No Keys

It was just a kiss
I didn’t give you keys
To my apartment or
To my heart’s door.
To get in there you have to walk
Through the maze that is in my head
And survive the crashing waves in the sea of my soul.
Your feet will get burned by the coals in my eyes
You will be scarred by the nails in my words
Falling in love with me is easy
Staying in love isn’t a hot knife through lard.
So let’s remind ourselves that it was just a kiss
One moment of bliss
There’s nothing to miss
If never again, you kiss…these lips.

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#DanfoMornings

Do you ever just find yourself staring at some random guy, and while you’re still trying to figure out what it is that drew your eyes to him, that crazy voice that lives inside your head whispers “That one surely has halitosis.”
“Shut up,  spoilsport! ” is your quick retort, silencing the voice.
You look at how coolly he looks, in that crisp,  pink linen shirt, #BeardGang and all.  Or when last did you see glasses balance so perfectly on an aquiline nose. Why should a guy even have these oh-so-perfect eyelashes?  And oh, look at those lips,  surely what lies behind them is….
And then, he sits beside you,  smiles and his eyes  say hello to your cleavage first before they travel up to meet yours and he parts his lips and breathes “Hello”.
You freeze. Holding your breath. Just then, the gears creak and the bus lurches forward,  letting in a gust of not-so-fresh-but-very-welcome air from the window.  You turn your head and let the air fill your lungs… The breath of life.
Seconds later,you remember that you didn’t even respond to Mr. Pink Shirt’s greeting. Taking advantage of the fact that you’re upwind,  you turn to him to return the courtesy and you’re met with a scowl. Still,  you venture…
“Hello.”
“Beautiful lady,  bad attitude.”, is his scathing reply.
I turn back to the window and smile at the waters as the bus speeds over the Third Mainland Bridge.
“He took your breath away, didn’t he?”  The crazy voice in my head has slunk out again and is sitting on my left shoulder,  filing her nails.  Our eyes meet for a second and we both burst into laughter.
Mr. Pink Shirt shifts in his seat, away from me, squeezing the other two passengers on the row. One of them, a gaunt, balding man, let’s out a string of insults in Yoruba.
Wind in my face,  eyes closed,  I smile again.
Good morning, Lagos.
#LagosLiving #DanfoMornings #LiveLoveLagos #FictionIsReality
Thank you Mystique Syn of http://www.syncityng.com  for the inspiration to share my #DanfoMornings story.

Crossroads

See you at the crossroads,
Pray we’re not in the crosshairs
Life’s all a crossword
Our words, the skull and crossbones.

They said he was a crosspatch
But, when we crossed paths,
Hoped to die, with crossed hearts
Forbidden, we’d crossed lines
Etched black on white, a crossfire. 

See you at the crossroads
This time there won’t be crosshairs
Figured out Life’s crosswords
Crossed hearts, skulls and crossbones.

 

 

You Will Meet A Tall Dark … Dentist!

There is a lump in my throat. No, it is this tightness in my chest. It must be heartburn. Indigestion. Must be from using too many eggs in the omelette I ate last night.

Or not.

Two eggs in an omelette is not the cause of my discomfort. It’s because ever since Nanya’s birthday party on Saturday evening, I’ve felt this way. I should have listened to that voice in my head that warned me the party would be a bad idea. But hey, free booze! Well, that and also the opportunity to meet tall, dark strangers who hopefully would be drunk enough to notice me and maybe want to have a close dance and maybe…

Stop it! You are not that desperate! At least…not yet. Besides, it’s only been 2 months, 11 days and 17hrs since he brok…. See, there’s still hope, he could still come back.

Titi said it took 90 days to get over an ex. It wasn’t 90 days yet, so there was still hope.

And then, there he was at Nanya’s party, with that skinny girl glued to his arm the entire time. And her name was Hope. Needless to say,’ hope’ took on a whole new meaning to me from that night. The sight of them slobbering all over each other nearly made me throw up all the gizdodo I had been happily munching on before their arrival. I grabbed my purse, spotted Nanya in the far corner chatting happily with her fiancé’s friends and decided to exit silently.

A few minutes later, I pulled my car to a stop in front of my apartment building. My knuckles hurt and I realized I had been gripping the steering wheel too tightly. Moving on autopilot, I got out, went into my apartment and locked the door. I opened the fridge and the bottle of Irish cream I had bought last week in anticipation of our “make up date” sat there looking all glum.

“Come to mama.” I grabbed it by the neck and not bothering to get a glass, unscrewed the top and took a long drink straight from the bottle. I curled up on the couch, shoes and all and drank every last drop from the bottle. And no, I did not cry. There was no need. I had lost to Hope. It was indeed over.

Hours later, I was awakened by the sound of shattering glass. I had slept off and the empty bottle had slipped from my hand and hit the ceramic tiled floor. The sides of my head throbbed like a heavy metal band hand played there all day.  I tried to swallow, but could not get past the lump in my throat.

“ How did that get here? I thought, looking at the broken bottle at my feet.  Stepping over it, I made my way to the kitchen and proceeded to make myself an omelette which I ate right out of the pan. Dumping the pan in the sink, I went to the room to sleep. If I had looked at the wall clock hanging above the television, I would have seen it was past 3am in the morning.

My sleep was filled with dreams of me looking for hope. Or Hope.

The cool morning breeze brought the sound of some soft, gospel music playing from Mr. Madu’s car stereo. He was probably washing it out in the front yard. In another hour, he and his family of six would pile into the car and head to church.

Church. I hadn’t been to church in weeks. My mother would have a heart attack if she knew how erratic my churchgoing had become. I could almost hear her voice saying “Do not forsake the gathering of the brethren, Anietie. It’s at church gatherings that you will see, nice tall, handsome, God-fearing responsible men to marry. Not in all those gbangbadidika parties that Nenaya girl pulls you to.” She never pronounced Nanya’s name right. Pushing the covers off me, I stretched out and said, “Church it is!”

 

There is still a lump in my throat. I have chosen a seat near one of the large pillars on the church auditorium. Just in case the air conditioning in the auditorium lulls me to sleep. The prayers and all the hyms have not cured me of this lump…no, tightness…..you know, heartburn.

I smelled him before I saw him. Why someone would bathe in so much perfume to come to the house of God is just beyond me. Then he slides into the seat next to me, his forearm brushing against mine as he does. From the side of my eye, I see him turn to look at me and flash a bright smile with a “good morning”. My reply was meant to be “mmhmm” but what came out instead was a low grunt. All possibility of me being lulled to sleep by the air conditioning immediately disappeared. Not with this hotness beside me with his overpowering, but……really nice perfume. Hmm, aromatherapy. After a while, even his exclamations, claps and responses to the pastor’s words ceased to become annoying. His forearm rubbed against mine a couple more times and it felt..well, you know…brethrenly. He had rolled up the long sleeves of the pale green shirt he wore which he had tucked in casually into some dark colored pants. I thought it was cute the way his soul patch moved each time his lips moved. I was having so much fun drinking in the awesomeness that sat beside me that I didn’t realize the sermon was over and the choir had started setting up to sing. His fingers brushed lightly against mine as he passed the offering tray to me and I returned his smile.

After we shared the grace, I was pleased when the deacon who closed the service asked everyone to turn to their neighbours and wish them a blessed week. Mr. Aromatherapy turned towards me, hands in pockets. He took his right hand out of the pocket to take my outstretched hand and stuck between his forefinger and index finger was a teal colored rectangle of paper.

“ I, um, hope this doesn’t sound off. But, I’m a dentist. And we’re giving out seven free dentures this week as part of our CSR. I noticed you…”

He bared his teeth and indicated where I had a missing premolar. My smile disappeared immediately.

He quickly added, “You don’t have to. I was just…”

“It’s fine. I’ll be there.”

“Awesome! It would be great to see you again.” He gripped my hand firmly in both of his before he walked away, melting into the crowd of churchgoers.

I sat down again and turned the card over again and again in my hand as I read every detail. And then it hit me. This was what my mom had drummed in my ears about going to church and I didn’t know she spoke the truth.

You will meet a tall dark stranger. Hmm.  But was he even that tall? Or dark skinned?

Well, I had a dental appointment coming up that would answer all these questions. And maybe…more.

 

 

 

 

Nights are meant for loving

Beat a tattoo on my drum
I’ll sing, or maybe hum
Fireflies will give us light,
As we dance away the night.

Or maybe you should beat
A tune for the moon
To come out to play
Bathing us in silvery moonbeams
It seems we own the night.

Nights are meant for lovers and loving,
That everybody knows.
So why does the old lady hiss
And turn up her nose
As we lose ourselves in love’s throes?

Let us dance on our tippy toes.
But can you tell where this stream goes?
Is that fire in your eyes
Burning me or keeping me alive?

Souvenirs d’un amour passé

His kiss was like poetry
Spoken in tune with the harp
His fingers strumming sweet chords
On my hair-strings, heartstrings
And in that moment, that instant,
Time froze
As his tongue took mine
Down exotic paths
We discovered new galaxies
His kiss was bliss
And that’s what I really miss.
I miss his kiss.

Il me manque,mais surtout, son baiser.